american history should be my favorite class. but not because i blog in it. [dont tell on me]

yesterday i decided, very suddenly, that i am growing up too fast.
too many responsibilities.
too much work, school, money problems.
being hassled about dating, messy rooms, and lack of healthy habits.
im only 20.
i dont want to have to pay bills, or buy vegetables.
so what i would like is to go back to being 18.
where i just wasted my life away wishing i was the nice age of 20.
where i took for granted my large money savings, parents covering rent, and the ease of freshman year classes at BYUI.
overall, i think i just need to appriciate being young.
before i am married and have kids [not that i plan that happening soon, for sure]
and have myself in over my head with work and school and more bills then i can ever imagine.

thank you friend for reminding me of my minute responsibilites in comparison to his.
thank you mom for being so nice.
and as much as i always seem overly stressed out and/ or irritated,
i appriciate many things about my life and im working on noticing the positive.



p.s. dogs love me. and i dont know how to react to them mostly.