when full of unknown feelings i most definatly have the most to say.

today is definatly an appropriate day to blog.
some days are just filled with emotion.
an emotional breakdown did occur today.
i feel a lot better now.
todays events include a new job, school, and dramaaaaaa.
sometimes i wonder about people.
have you ever wondered what someone else was thinking?
i do, alot. not that im wondering what they think about me, more like...
i wonder what other people think about. hah, i wonder if people's heads race like mine does.
i love that im learning meditation.
meditation has taught me, with the little that i have done, to relax.
although i have been very stressed out these past weeks, i have also been developing skills to be able to calm myself.
ive been learning alot about myself lately.
i think right now i really need that. i want to know who i am.
other than self discovery, i really desire to know what to do next in my life.
whether to go home, move somewhere else, or possibly, to stay here.....
which is not my first thought or most delightful thought.
im not really sure what else im thinking.
i feel older than i really am.
but at the same time i wish i had more maturity in some areas.
thats where i end this, i think, with my head still spinning in circles, but my heart is calmer and even though im full of confusion, at the end of this day im way more relaxed than i would have ever expected i would be 2 hours ago.

heres to two thousand and, uh, great?

if i had to explain my break, id give you these nine songs.
*sea of love- cat power
[one of the prettiest songs ive ever heard]
*i wish i was the moon tonight- neko case
[please, you would too if you heard this song]
*under the blacklight- rilo kiley
[my choice if jenny lewis for the break]
*lake michigan- rogue wave
[rogue wave=real good.]
*16 military wives- the decemberists
[i like it. i also watched the music video over break and fell in love]
*lack of color- death cab
[i amit, watching the OC recently made me like this song again. remember when seth wrote a chrismakuh song to lack of color? it made you wanna go listen to it for real.]
*monarch- feist
[i fall in love or re-fall in love with a new feist song like every month]
*anyone else but you- michael cera and ellen page
[i fell in love with michael cera, and the film juno]
*gold lion- yeah yeah yeahs
[made my airplane ride more tolerable]