when full of unknown feelings i most definatly have the most to say.

today is definatly an appropriate day to blog.
some days are just filled with emotion.
an emotional breakdown did occur today.
i feel a lot better now.
todays events include a new job, school, and dramaaaaaa.
sometimes i wonder about people.
have you ever wondered what someone else was thinking?
i do, alot. not that im wondering what they think about me, more like...
i wonder what other people think about. hah, i wonder if people's heads race like mine does.
i love that im learning meditation.
meditation has taught me, with the little that i have done, to relax.
although i have been very stressed out these past weeks, i have also been developing skills to be able to calm myself.
ive been learning alot about myself lately.
i think right now i really need that. i want to know who i am.
other than self discovery, i really desire to know what to do next in my life.
whether to go home, move somewhere else, or possibly, to stay here.....
which is not my first thought or most delightful thought.
im not really sure what else im thinking.
i feel older than i really am.
but at the same time i wish i had more maturity in some areas.
thats where i end this, i think, with my head still spinning in circles, but my heart is calmer and even though im full of confusion, at the end of this day im way more relaxed than i would have ever expected i would be 2 hours ago.