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last night i puked from anxiety.


make it go away.

ive always hated october.

More than likely right now im feeling more emotions at once than is healthy for a single person. single meaning... one person? or single meaning if i was in a relationship it would be healthy? damned if i knew. hahaha. im torn between being the sweetheart that i am so well known to be and the b*****, that is not the b word, btw, that i possibly should be? possible, that i should not be? ugh. here is the deal. i dont handle people well. i just want to give them what they want. im either really nice or really mean. and i find it painfully hard to find a medium i think. also, im currently feeling ill because of the way i feel. ugh, curse, this blog has to end now. i cant write more or i will turn rediculous.